have i ever told you that joy doesnt mean fun?
you dont get joy all the time when you're having fun.
and you dont need to have fun, to experience joy.

am i making sense?

and today i felt joy.

it was walking from taka to cine to forum to tanglinmall with bev and huimin. and then from tanglin all the way back to luckyplaza with evelyn. and all these walks were enjoyable, be it with or without a conversation. with or without picking up saga seeds in the middle of the road.

and then it was festival of praise. on a funnier note, i would say it was a rollercoaster ride. ask me why,ask me why!!! the guy next to evelyn kept humping. (please, dont think dirty.) as in he kept moving every single second. it was as thou he had worms up his ass or something. and it took alot for me not to say anything, or even look in his direction. and i didnt!! all i did was try to contain my laughter. on a not so funny note, fop this year was refreshing. it was more or a reflection time, and giving thanks. i guess in a way or another i really needed this 'refresher' because of the past 2 weeks or so. been really hectic, got my thoughts wrong, values wrong. everything was quite wrong basically. but im feeling much better now. thoughts quite straight, im learning/trying to hope in faith.

as much as i would like to not whine about danny.. and think of him, i have to be reminded of him everywhere i go. receive sms-es from enlai, went to blackjack and knowing matthew knows quite alot about my bro. yadayada. my mom asking me to call him to ask him whether he wants her recipe for his fav chicken. now everyone go.... awwww.

believe it or not, since i got my paycheque on tuesday... ive only bought a bag and a pair of shoes from exodus. (both discounted!!!).. damn proud of myself. and today was also birkenstock hunting with bev and huimin. we went to like the two birks in town. and even forum to look at the betulas!! -take note, white and gold birks, gorgeous!!- now now....... we're gathering people to buy birks online!! the more people we get, the cheaper shipping fees will be. and birks overseas are cheaper. if we can get about ten people, it will be about 40% off the birk's prices now in singapore!!! so... if you wanna join in.. the more the merrier, sms me or sth. i should be getting three pairs. (hey essentials.) *rolls eyes* anyway... shall see. we were damn aunty. we kept telling each other.. 'eh if you want get something from here -points to shop-, tell me k. i can get blablah percent off.' and we do that every single time we pass by a shop which we know someone or yadayada.

after fop was coffee with evelyn at lips. actually it wasnt really coffee. we didnt even have a proper conversation. we basically just sat and read our books. while enjoying the silence and each other's company. was amazingly good. =)